You stood out among all of the others, not really knowing why.
To this day, we argue what it meant for you that day.
That day in which you were chosen to be a leader among the nations.
That day in which the world changed around you, for better or for worse.
We stand out today, reminded of your first steps on your journey.
Until today, we argued, discussed and argued even more regarding our journey.
Today, today, today, we focus on leading our children by example.
Today, we grapple with defining what it means for us to take our own steps forward.
Looking out upon the smiling faces of our children, all of our children,
Struggling for the words to define our emotions, our “thoughts and prayers,”
Wondering if and how we can make this journey of peace possible,
Reminded of your first steps – of your ability to “go with the flow.”
Then I realize the scope of your “righteousness” is not what matters.
Then I realize there is a struggle with every step forward.
Then I realize it is important to try to understand, even if I cannot.
Then I realize we must work together, struggling, arguing and moving forward.
Courage and Inspiration
Today is the day she stood up, spoke her truth and inspired us all.
Today is the day she showed all of us it is possible to get up and stay standing.
Today is the day our children have learned the importance of courage.
Today is the day we are inspired by her courage, by her strength.
Tomorrow is the day we will wake up as a nation and move forward together.
Tomorrow is the day her strength and courage will be celebrated.
Tomorrow is the day she will remain standing tall.
Tomorrow is the day her inspiration will give us courage and strength.
Oh God, bless her and all of those who have felt violated.
Oh God, bless her and anyone who is unable to stand up and scream out.
Oh God, bless her and her family, all our families, all of us.
Oh God, bless us, bless us all as we admire her and learn from her.
Blessed are You, God, the One who gives us strength, even when we do not think we have it.
Today - how do I put my feelings into words?
Words that others will understand....words that will help me understand.
Sadness, confusion, incomplete"ness," weight, weak, crying....
But, yet, even as I think about these words I realize there are others.
Thankful, recognition, appreciation, strength, thoughtful, smiling....
Is it possible to have these feelings at the same time?
Why do I feel torn between these two extremes?
What is it - why can't I just feel apathetic...somewhere in the middle?
Apathy - this is a feeling I do not understand...it is like feeling nothing.
Is it easier for me to feel nothing? It is easier for me to just ignore my feelings?
This does not feel right. I seek something - justice, righteousness...is there something more?
I am a rabbi. I am a father. I am a husband. I am a friend. I am a stranger. I am so many things...
I am human first...nothing else take precedence. I was born a human - everything else came afterwards.
I know it is not possible for me to hide away and ignore my confusion...ignore what I feel isn't right.
I know I need to act for what I believe is right...people depend on these actions.
The leader in me knows it is time to act...it is time to lead by example and do something.
God - guide me; show me; instruct me; LEAD me.....